Day 18 – Morning

I have been very tired for the last two days. As a result, I failed to meditate on Saturday and only attempted 10 minutes yesterday.

I returned to 20 minutes today but tried something different. I sat in the truck outside work after my commute but before heading inside. (I didn’t want to do this at home before leaving for the day as a 20 minute delay in the start of commute could easily add 20 minutes to the duration of the commute.) I allowed myself a few minutes before starting to allow the stress of the drive to start to fade away and then closed my eyes and began my focus on breath.

As with my midday meditation, I found it harder to hold focus during this morning meditation. But the reason felt different. I was in no hurry to get into the building to start work, but my mind kept drifting off—first with tangential thoughts and then with “waking dream” thought. I did, however, notice (afterward) that while I did not think about time at all during the meditation period, I did have a strong feeling that the time was up just before the timer sounded.